Sunday, June 19, 2011

a couple of (large) glasses of red and a cider...it's the perfect time to blog.
oh, yes...yes it is.

i'm warm.
the wine is quite tasty.
it's a red that was given to a friend for her birthday.
i have youtube playing eskimo joe songs.
no.
i'm not ashamed of that.
i've liked them from way back...waaay back.
2001 or 2002.
years ago.

gods i feel old.

the small one...is not so small.
he's going to be seven.


this is terrifying.

i remember 7.
i wasn't happy.

he seems happy.
he's having trouble with school.
he's not been paying attention.

i could get away with it to some extent...he doesn't seem to have that.
he said today (for the first time) that he hates school.

i didn't hate school.
school was an escape.

yeah.
my parents are married.
i was born well within wedlock.
it didn't stop the shouting.

or the hitting.



**shrug**

what can i do?
all of that is (thankfully) done with now.
i *can* help my boy.
he's clever and quick.

but...

he needs to want to...
and he doesn't.

gah!

how can i tell him that he needs this?
he needs to feel it for himself.

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